Devour

G'day! 

I will be saying that soon enough :D I wonder if I can go my sophomore year in the spring. I will talk to my study abroad advisor when I get back to school.  A lot of things will be in motion when I get back to school.  Which will make me feel better because everything is at a standstill right now for me. Everyone else around me is running around doing things and I am sitting here. I am getting quite a pathetic feeling.  I will never be a bum without a job or classes or a career. I would feel too sorry for myself and be in a slump and that would not last long.

Tonight I am going to briefly discuss the media. As it is the topic of a book I have to read for school.  The author has already made some good points.  He is trying to explain how the media is so intertwined in our lives that it is natural to expect it for some younger people or those being born into it.  Which, makes sense. Plus, it is all anyone talks about. T.V. shows, commercials, internet whatevers, celebs.  I feel awkward talking to people that start conversations with "Oh did you see American Idol last night?" mainly because I don't like that show. But I am not the kind of person to respond with "No, that show is fucking dumb" because I am pretty nice.  Still, it feels to me that that is what the majority of people discuss. I honestly feel that is why I am not a social little person. I don't care about all of the normal T.V. shows and celebrities and clothing styles and what the hell else those people talk about.  I would rather discuss ideas and plans and theories and intellectual things.  Does anyone out there want to discuss that with me because I feel alone a lot.  I mean, no one is dedicated to anything anymore. Besides, drinking on the weekends, catching up with their celebrity gossip and Gossip Girl and facebook stalking their friends (which I do sometimes but not to the extent of some people) and gossiping in general. I think I wrote about this already but, how can you  be "friends" with like, way too many people, then talk about their lives to their friends and be fulfilled with your life? I just don't see how.  Plus, back to the media book, the author was discussing how the media provides us with instant and infinite information.  Which, ok, I can see how the brain likes information and all kinds of different stuff and how a T.V. provides that easily.  Flashing colors, images, sounds, situations, places, people, things, the T.V. has it all.  So for example, I personally cannot stop learning. I love just looking things up on Wikipedia or in books or having someone teach me.  This means to me that my brain is always looking to learn something and T.V. usually provides enough stimulation. However, it is so tainted with whatever T.V. show producers and advertising agents want us to see that I cannot handle that much of it. Honestly, a T.V. show every now and then would completely suffice for me. I do enjoy the shows that teach me things more than others.  PBS is usually full of those.  I do reading. I wish we had some encyclopedias around so I could read them. I would certainly read them all the time.  If I picked up the "E" volume I am sure it would have enough random information to satisfy my hunger.

I just hate being barraged with advertisements.  Seriously, less than half even apply to me.