A feeling I know all too well

I don't know how I would describe it. There really is no way to describe it to someone who hasn't experienced it. The whole world seems to be spinning around you. The world seems darker. You notice details you never did before. Thoughts flood your head and at the same time, everything is gone. Words escape and are lost. You want to say something to those around you and even to yourself, yet, there is nothing to say. You want to think about it but there are no thoughts to be had. You want to escape. You want to be infinitely far away from the present situation. You feel lost where you stand. Life is all around you and yet, your place isn't here. Emotions cloud your vision and not one can even be expressed. The emptiness. The helplessness. I can't think of words to describe it. The feeling is just out of reach. You begin to feel like there are things to do but...what? Is there really anything to do? Even if you do become very productive, the feeling is still in your mind. It is the underlying cause of your keeping busy. As soon as you stop, it floods your mind and overwhelms you with the feelings you should have been feeling the whole time. You want someone to be there for you and at the same time, you want everyone to leave you alone. It is as if no one else understands. Even if they do, even if they are affected more than you personally, they don't know. Nothing seems quite right.

This one just takes me back to the others.